.:kinda wasted day... and shocking news...:.
::well was supposed to go to JB today with frens but then dur to unforeseen reasons the whole trip got cancelled... pal could not find his passport and there was problems getting a vehicle so the whole planned was scrapped... well so went for e-comm lecture for the very first time... lecture theatre seemed like a holy place.. considering the fact i did not step in for lecture for a long long time.. and i realised why i was marked absent for a long time... it is because the damn lecturer calls out names in the lecture... sad life manz... well whatever it is this lecture was kinda remarkable.. i managed to stay awake for the whole 2 hour duration... woo hoo... kinda amazing... the more amazing this is i was there...
so after lecture went down to sim lim with zoravar to check out computer stuff and meet kevin... before that recieved a call from jieyi asking me if i read today's new paper and i kinda guessed she was refering to the front page article about a bike accident involving a singaporean couple in indonesia and in which the girl died... i kinda saw the paper in school but did not see the face of the person involved... so i went to get a copy of the paper and i actually realised that the guy in the picture was actually my senior... a SCLT from west... 4 years my senior... well incident was kinda saddening... the accident took the life of his fiancee and and now he is tortured by toughts of the incident and is in an emotionally bad condition... no doubt he wasn't favoured by many due to his harsh ways... i belive our sympathy and prayers are with him.. at least mine are... kinda sad to see love birds separated like this.. sad life manz... this like this that refrain me from getting a bike a license.. due to its potential dangers.. but then on the other hand, when you got to go, you got to go... its all destined...
well after sim lim went to kevin's place then yazid came over... after that yazid came over to my palce... he practically scared me... the way he was riding and all.. felt like i was gonna fall off... haha kinda had my balls in my throat... oops! haha... heck it lahz..
well still hoping for the best.. hope all turns out well...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:28:00 PM:.
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.:feeling so empty...:.
::feeling so empty.. feeling so blank... i dunno whats going on.. maybe its just me... maybe i should not have said anything so soon... perhaps should have waited a while longer... maybe i did not seem sincere enough.... but the true fact is i meant it... it isnt a joke... i really meant what i said... maybe the whole thing is that i am just too paranoid... need to change... like i had said i really need to find the guy i was i before... but for now i know what i want and its you....
Pin this one last
because it was the hardest
Yet it meant the most to me at the same time
Feelings are tough to explain
when what i feel is bigger than any word that i can find
So i wrote you this song
To tell you i love you
But I know that thats much less than you deserve
It's all so much less
Then these feelings i'm feeling
I hope my actions speak louder than words
Call me whenever, and i will come running
I'm ready and waiting for ever for you
I'll give you my whole heart
To hold as your keepsake
If you should ever need proof
Remembering the times that we spent together
I know how good it feels to be in your arms
Im always so happy and filled up with laughter
when ever i'm with you i feel safe and warm
.:Sukhbir blogged on 12:33:00 AM:.
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.:one point is better than nothing:.
::well got up around 1.15pm... not bad huh... haha compared taht i did not sleep the day before... guess its gonna eb the same today... will be watching the gaem between argentina and brazil... go argentina go! well went for hockey match.. was late as expected.. played like shit.. as expected also... lsing my touch lahz.. hahah wait wait.. i never had a touch of the game... not good in hockey lahz... perhaps i should just stick to soccer... anyways we drew the game 0-0... taking home one point i better than taking home none.. but of course best is taking all 3 points... after that went for dinner at scotts and then to play pool at lcuky plaza...
well the day was kinda short and nothing happening besides the fact that michael and i were making fun of joey.. poor joey...
well saw this sign and i think its kinda true... "love is worth the wait"
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 9:38:00 PM:.
.:ndp rehearsal:.
::well i did not sleep at all in the first place... was doing admin work throughout the whole night... need to settle all the admin man... need to get everythign started on the right track... well after i fnished bathing and all realised it was raning cats and dogs... just a superb kind of weather to sleep in but had to go for training.. got ready and was leaving hoem when i realsied that irritating sis of mine took my jacket to camp... so rushed to unit... due to the rain everythign was delayed.. rehearsals was cocked up... should know why what... this year not planned by ncc what... thats why... haha.. everything was like so messy and all.. but who cares lahz.. fucked up lahz.. we proved to be the better ones... as usual... or should i say the best... haha... well told the cadets what were our objectives and aims.. and this is like the last time we are gonna remind them... after this its their on effort and attitude...
well after training went down to lot 1 for the normal lunch at long john's and then went to play pool at k-box.. not bad... lahz.. getting more and mroe sucky at it... after slack awhile at coffee bean then later came home.. practically fell flat on the bed... got up like 2 hours later... surprised to get up so fast... expected to be up like the next day or something... well got up with a slight bit of runny nose... damn lahz... was thinking of going for a run but then dropped the idea lahz... dammn... need to go and buck up on my fitness manz.. slack oredi... damn...
show me the way... please....
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 12:04:00 AM:.
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.:there is a kid in all of us:.
::welll school today was not that bad after all... started around 12 ended at 4... went to play badminton and daidee at the sports hall, while waiting for the phat nite 2004 to start... its kind like the dance party for school of information technology students... come time for the phat nite we decided not to go as it seemed kind of not to our liking and they denied entry to one of our buddies.. so living with the "one for all, all for one" spirit we all walked out... we went to watch the soccer match that was going on... the nyp staff team against some team from admiralty... not bad lahz.. no doubt the staff team lost... but cant blame them lahz.. the other side was a young side and the staff team was like a bunch of veterans... only some can run... i think if the admiralty team played against the school team they would have seen rainbows at night.... haha... well after that we went to one of the blocks in the campus and started playing daidee and singing songs and alll haha... happening lahz.. then after that one of the guys blurted out the comment that there is a kid in all of us... haha.. and thats when like the fun started... we started playing catching... haha.. imagine poly students playing catching... haha... reliving our childhood... happening lahz... haha... like kampong like that all running around bare footed and all... not bad lahz.. had loads of fun... think it beats the phat nite totally manz...
i need some light... please please please shine some light.... please....
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:59:00 PM:.
.:wasted day:.
::well after the mornign classes had lunch break from 1 to 4... had to wait for 3 hours just for a one hour tutorial lesson... but then guess what... when i went to the class the lecturer had bloody cancelled the class... damn hell couldn't they like inform earlier or inform everyone in the first place... damn shit manz... just cancel the class like this then like wasted 3 hours siitng down and wondering what to do... atleast got to see the repeat telecast of the argentina and columbia game on the tv mobile in school... its gonna be an argentina and brazil final.. i so wish that argentina wins the copa america... brazil has been winning too much lahz... haha.. atleast a tribute to maradona lahz.. common man argentina win it for the legendary diego armando maradona...
after leaving school went down to PSA Club to see a match... actually to see a referee ref a match lahz.. kind of lame but then its a way to learn lahz.. and also to sit in for th post-mortem of the match and see what the senior referee has to say about the referees performance and all... learning from each other mistakes and good points... was planning to go out somehwere for dinner but then suddenly got a splitting headache so decided to go home... have not been eating well recently... been losing too much of weight... damn.. sukhy u better look after yourself....
well no messages... no conversation... no contact... sad life lahz... whole life wasted.... just too busy perhaps.... adios!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 12:19:00 AM:.
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.:bad dream!!!:.
::had a bad dream.. dreamt that i was driving and i beat a traffic light.. thats like revocation of licencse manz... damn.. im never going to let that happen.. it cant happen, waited for it for so damn long manz...
practically am amazed that i made it to school on time... haha.. kinda getting good at this waking up early thingy... haha... well good also lahz.. now practically in the lab bumming around.. sitting here for 2 hours surfing the net and thinking... anyways perhaps write more later gotta run for another class.. ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:22:00 AM:.
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.:feels like the old times, once again...:.
::well went to school.. left earlier a bit as there was training in kranji... was kind of surprised to see every being knocked down when i arrived but it was good manz... this kids need some waking up... well training felt like the old days lahz... "1942" we call it... whole traiining was nothing but drills... the part d especially needs to really buck up... we need to show that we are really the best in cca in the school.. not some longkang cca or what.... ndp coming all of them need to outshine the rest, cos we are the best... we only keep the best... hope to see improvements tomorrow... its gonan be fine i guess... we are gonna reach our goal, i believe in these kids... they just need to start believing in themselves....
welll i see things going fine.. hope they remain this way... seem to have found my motivation once again... hope it doesnt go away...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 9:42:00 PM:.
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.:cool jerseys!!!:.
::just finished class.. gonna leave for cck soon... well manchester united has got new jerseys... sad past is that the jerseys will be for 2 seasons... damn.. they only changed the ome kit.. design is nice but the problem about nike's designs are, that the design is the same for all the teams.. damn.. why cant it be unique... something like what the other brands do... but nvm ahz... well most prob cougars might get new jerseys too... hopefull can get... need to do some housekeeping for the team... well maybe can open a ladies team too.. have been thinking of it for sometime but dunno yet...
and yeahz... have been given one more game... thats good... thats like superb.. like i said every game means a new experience... but now got to plan my time properly... can be done... no stress...
well yeah finally i actually said it... did not go that bad lahz... should have said much earlier rite... well anyways maybe might meet.. dunno yet... if yes good, if not then some other time... perhaps...
well anyways the man u jersey pics:
.:Sukhbir blogged on 2:05:00 PM:.
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.:ncc day parade 200:.
::well once again it was ncc day parade... and again as normal i was doing duty.. hate it manz... why cant those guys just come and help... so much for the "No Job is too Lowly for Me".... well anyways got to see bits and pieces of the parade... was quite ok lahz... considering ncc's standard now.. yah it was kind of ok lahz... but a lot of the cadets march like they driving some 'vehicle' haha... really look like small kids army... but i think the finale was kind of good... nice to see all the cadets on the parade square jumping around with joy and waving their school's flag.. happening lahz... that scene was pricesless... haha... but sad part was we were one of the last ones to leave the place... as usual ahz...
well i finally decided to clear all the doubts and confusions i had... i think its best to let it be known... perhaps i will say it soon... very soon... dun think there is a point in hiding and burying anything... it only will lead to other unpleasant stuff later.... well sukh wake up... be brave... hehe
hope things turn out for the good... ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:20:00 PM:.
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.:another simple day...:.
::well got up late.. supposed to attend some sports club meeting in school.. would have been able to make it for the meeting if not for the fact that i ahd to put on contacts... took darn bloody long to put on the contacts manz... took somethinglike 30-40mins to get the damn thing in... aiyahz cant blam lahz its only like my third time wearing it... only wearing contacts for my games... other times its me with my geeky specs...
well went to hang about at lot 1 before the game... saw some familiar faces and met asyraf there and started chit chatting with him and discussing ways to further improve standards of units... haha and of course talking about the good old days...
well i tot i was gonna be late for the game but when i reached there and finished changing i realised i was not the one who was late... haha.. kind of panicked for awhile thinking about the fact that what if the other 2 did not turn up.. die manz... haha... anyways a lesson learnt was ot get hold of the contact list before hand... anyways game was quite ok.. but kind of one sided after the first 30 mins.. must improve of my catching of fouls... but then i think it was kind of ok lahz... well day by day this is kind of getting more intresting.... i want mroe games... more games means more exposure... wonder if can be a fifa someday.. maybe... wonder who knows... still thinking of the adidas kit.. haha.. seems kind of happening lahz...
ncc day parade is tomorrow.. as usual i am doing duty.. damn it... what ever lahz.. who cares lahz... damn it.... wish all the best to everyone involved in anyway....
well im still thinking whether i should make a move or not.. or what should i move towards to.... which path should i take.. this is so damn confusing.. somebody please shine some light for me...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 10:28:00 PM:.
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.:just a simple day:.
::well just a normal school day... went to class was reminded by one of the lecturers that my graduation was due already... haha... well coming to think of it, its not so funny now... well can change much of the past but just have to move on and prevent the future from screwing up...
after school was the normal lepaking at the poly's Mac... and of course playing daidee...
well after leaving school went out with family for dinner... its my irritating sis's birthday... we dun get a long that well as most would know... haha... we simply just cant tolerate each other... but then it was kind of nice to put the cake on her face... think she looked better with the cream and all on her face... haha... so i dun think it was a bad dinner after all...
got a game tomorrow COE U-18... kinda tough to do the games but then it is not the toughest of assignments many more tough ones to come... every assignment is a new experience... very very thankful for the assignments... will need to buck up on my fitness... not very happy with it, wont be happy with it till i think i have reached my optimum... i believe there is still way more room for improvement... hope the game goes well... till tomorrow then... adios!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 12:36:00 AM:.
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.:keeping up the habit:.
::well today is one of those miracle days that i went for all lessons.. not only for all lessons but then i kind of did my work... waoh! this change is kind of surprising... well but then till the end of the day i was like totally shagged out... i was practically dozing in the last class, even though i was right infront of the class... but then it could also because of the badminton... went to play badminton dring the 3 hour break.. it was like playing after a long long time... so damn tiring... but it was like so damn fun....
well after school went to drop by hockey training... did not bring my attire so i know i was not going to train... but then when i went there and saw all the new players.. i think i can just skip trainings... or perhaps just go back to my old objective of just taking hockey as a new sport and try to keep getting better in soccer... i do not see myself in this upcoming NYP team.. seems like my chance is gone.. haha but then nvm.. doesnt matter.. all the new players are quite good.. guess most of the older players can go sit on the bench and slack.. haha...
well i am a little confused now.. dunno what to do or atleast what to do next... to tell or not tell is the question... damn damn damn...!!! how to advance manz... whole life wasted....::
.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:41:00 PM:.
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.:damn bloody article:.
::well went pass the student affairs office and picked up a copy of the TNT... read the damn blooody article of mine that everyone has been talking about... damn shit manz... bloody article looks so damn different from what i said manz... and they made it look as if i said all that in the article.. the article clearly shows its not me manz... damn.. editor lacks training manz.. so do whoever is involved with the damn newsletter... so damn pissing off... hate ppl using my name when it has nothing to do with me... even though it maybe good... damn shit manz... wish all the articles would just row away.. haha.. nahz maybe not that bad lahz...::
.:Sukhbir blogged on 12:47:00 AM:.
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.:my frist entry...:.
::this is like kinda my first entry.. did not believe in blogging and all but then here i am... dunno why i am starting also.. well school was like fine... today is a day to be marked... its like i did all my tutorials.. haha when did that start happening after first semester of year one... well iw as like also the only student in comseq class... was a bloody one on one session with the lecturer but it turn out good, superb infact... school ended earlier then expected and was playing daidee at MaCs while waitng for the others to start class...
After leaving school went down for referee training.. it was kinda good... but then i also found my fitness level dropping.. sukh sukh sukh!!! wake up!!! buck up... did some endurance training and speed work... field was muddy and all due to the rain... it was kinda fun running around in the rain slipping here and there and everywhere.. haha.. well suddenly i feel like getting the adidas referee kit.. it has the "killer" look.. haha.. butt hen the price is also a killer by itself... haha.. but then can consider as a one time investment kind of thing...
well i guess i got nothing else to write and hope that i progress on what i am trying to do.. ciaoz!::
.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:04:00 PM:.
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