.:sukh u r an idiot!!!:.
::well i guess the title says it all... sukh you are an idiot... you are a freaking blooming idiot... from all the things to do in this world you pissed of the person you love and care for the most... what a thing to do...
shit ahz... guess she is pissed with me... she says she needs a break.. she says she has something more important to think about now... well guess i really did it this time... we have not contacted each other in the past 2 days... the way she put it i dun think she wanna hear from me soon... well i just hope she is fine and she is having a good time with her frenz... atleast they dun make her frown... she seems happy around them... guess she is getting bored with me...
well results are coming out... i wish her all the best... hope she does well.... infact i know she will, i have the confidence in her that she will...
hope things turn out fine...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 1:18:00 AM:.
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.:damn pissed...:.
::well it was a pissing off day.. not to good a day... seems as if my mom is picking fault at anything i do... im getting so so pissed off with her... she needs to get this into her damn thick head that i am turning 22 and i am not a bloody small kid anymore... stop questioning what i do...just let me live my life my way and and try not to meddle wif it too much... all this is just an unecessary headache for me... always knew my family was not on my side... everything is for the own damn self-gains.. the situation i am now in school is also partially the consequences of their bloody doings... i so bloody hate it...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:28:00 PM:.
.:i guess i was just paranoid...:.
::well i started to think with a cool head... perhaps i was just being paranoid... maybe i am too fast to react... well i think i need to take things as they come and make the best out of it... shouldnt let my thoughts controll my head and delusion everything... well she said her day was screwed and didnt wanna talk about it... not sure why... maybe she saw my previous post and wasnt too happy wif it... i am not sure... well i just hope things turn out for the better... dun intend to be saying "U" and "I" or "U" and "ME" for much longer... "US" sounds much better doesnt it??? haha...
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 9:53:00 PM:.
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.:thoughts and feelings...:.
::well basically all this while i have been blogging my days and events that i wanna remember... well today its different... i am blogging down my thoughts and fellings... well i have been keep this in me for the last few days.. didnt have anyone to talk to about it... well seriously i am not sure where to start... i am not sure even if there is an end... well honestly i havent been too good lately... been worrying about how things would turn out to become or how things are at current time... well actually i have been thinking about her and me... well i dunno why but then i am starting to feel that we are drifting away... things are not as how it was before... to me previously we were very much closer... well maybe perhaps i could be wrong... but then its like we communicate much lesser now... and if its like if i dun msg her she wont msg... it wasnt like this before... why has it become like this now??? did i do something wrong??? i dunno... tell me if i did... why dun u share ur problems with me??? honestly i really really love her... i dun just wanna share her happiness i wanna share her happiness too... i wanna be with her through thick and thin... seriously there are a lot of questions running in my head... and the thing i hate most about it is i do not have the answers to them... questions like, what does she think of me?? does she feel the same way?? does she trust me?? does she hate me??? does she dislike me??? is she trying to avoid me??? why has she started to treat me different from last time??? was i right in telling her how i truly feel about her or should i have waited for a later stage??? maybe i should have revealed my feelings later but how much later??? i already kept it for so long... would our friendship ever advance??? so many questions yet not even a single convincing answer... i feel like a guy at the jetty trying to rope in his boat thats floating away... its either he manages to pull his boat to him or he falls in to the water... i dun wanna fall in to the water... she is the happiness and smile on my face.... i dun wanna lose her...
i am really feeling down... i need a sign.. i need answers... maybe all this is just me... me being paranoid... am i paranoid??? damn... another question in my head that i dun haf an answer to...
the only thing i am very sure about now is this... i love you... i love you For Always 'N' Always!!!::
.:Sukhbir blogged on 2:11:00 AM:.
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.:Valentine's Day!!!:.
::well lets see.. today is valentine's day... how nice... haha... kinda excited... was meeting her later.... yipee!!! ok ok.. fine fine... well got up in the morning... was making my way down to school when upon reaching marsiling mrt i decided to call fabian to ask of his where abouts and i find out from him that there wasnt class in the morning... well so then i made my way down towards queensway shopping centre... needed to exchange some thing.. needed to undo a blunder i did... haha... well after that went down to hougan polyclinic to meet zo and senthil.. both of thmw ere there taking mc... haha... well just met up with them lahz... had to kill some time before the game... had to do a game before meetin her... aiyohjz.. but then good in a way ahz.. infact very good... well game was wuite ok.. first game was very one sided.... the margin between the 2 teams at the end was 15 goals... well second was quite entertaining... not bad ahz... well after that made my way down to town to meet her... and here is where i go yipee again... haha... well what to do first time i go out with girl on valentines day and i am glad its her... what can i say, its worth the wait ahz... well nothing much ahz.. just dinner and slack wif frens.. thats all... well after that took the train home... walked her home as usual... what to do gentleman what... haha... :p well gave her what i got for her just before she was gonan go up... well i hope she likes it... dunno if she will or not.. but hope she does.... well really hope she does... there are like so many toughts running in my head now but i dunno how to put it down... down even know if i should put it down... argh!!! stop this... i hate this... its all this thoughts that keep going through my head and rip the smile of my face... hate it i sriously hate it... stop!!! argh... i was smiling and now... shit hate this manz... c'mon sukh cheer up... be positive... have faith.... well i think i will stop here for now... happy valentine's to all!!! ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 2:28:00 AM:.
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.:cant sleep!!!:.
::well its like 4 am and i cant sleep... i am kinda afraid to sleep now... have a feeling i would oversleep if i go to bed now... ziad would be picking me up at 0650hrs later and i dun wanna keep him waiting... well been doing a number of centres for the school tournament... well hope can pick up from here lahz.. gain experience for the future... well i heard that adidas is not gonna sponsor FAS for the coming year.. or atleast they have not confirmed it yet... oh shit.. damn damn!!! how can adidas not sponsor... argh!!! hahah... well i think i am gonna take a nap now.. hope its just a teeny weeny nap ahz... well adios and cioaz!!!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 4:20:00 AM:.
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.:never gonna leave your side...:.
::I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Recalling times gone by
And crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
'till you come to me
yeah
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 5:21:00 AM:.
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.:referee's internal futsal tournament:.
::well today was the referee's internal futsal tournament... sadly had to go with an injured knee... damn bike accident caused a relapse of my old knee injury... damn... well tournament was good... surprisingly leow turned out to be a superb goalkeeper... haha.. funny think was the way A Nathan was getting over excited with all the goals that were scored by our team.. in the whole tournament we only like lost 2 games and it was to the same team.. it was a double knockout system... we lost to them once in the winner's bracket and then again in the finals after making it through unbeaten in the loser's bracket... getting second also not so bad lahz.. atleast got to play in a match officiated by FIFA Referees... haha... superb lahz.. and the best part was our team was wearing Singapore Jerseys... not bad lahz.. haha.. i got to wear the no.11 jersey... well but then i like the no.10 but too bad nathan was wearing that... haha well it was a good tournament.. of course wat got a silver medal for it... haha... well ok lahz kinda tired gotta take a rest.. tomorrow got to do linesman for the ngee ann and ntu game at ngee ann poly... ok ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:04:00 PM:.
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.:tired tired tired..:.
::ok its been like 3 days and i have not stepped in to school... lets see monday i overslept and i was on MC for tuesday and today... and on all 3 days i went to do primary school games.. well tomorrow is gonna be different cos i will be doing the 'c' division... this whole week got game... friday got course.. and sunday is internal referee's soccer tournament... well at today's game one of the coaches came up to me and started talking to me and then he asked me if i knew who it was.. i took a good look at him and i kinda rocognised who it was but it still said i didnt know him... he told me he was lutfi and i was like oh lutfi the FIFA AR... haha.. and he was like so you know who i am... haha... well not abd ahz.. i do a game and i get a free accessor... hahha... well not sure if i did ok or not.. but then i think should be fine.. i did a blunder on monday.. i hop it doesnt foil up.. hope it remains covered... all depends on the next ref... well after todays game went down for ref training.. was too tiring but then on the whole.. i am kinda tired... after training went for dinner and then met zo and mikel... haha biker mike... well thats mikel's new name... biker mike... rajan gave him the name... from the cartoon biker mice from mars... haha... well mike wanted to ride around so zo and mike sent me home... i was riding with zo... dun wanna sit with mike as yet.. give him sometime first ahz... haha... well this is like somes up my day.. need to meet mentor tomorrow regarding my attendance.... oh no... haha... well ok lahz.. got to go.... ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:56:00 PM:.
.:tired tired tired..:.
::ok its been like 3 days and i have not stepped in to school... lets see monday i overslept and i was on MC for tuesday and today... and on all 3 days i went to do primary school games.. well tomorrow is gonna be different cos i will be doing the 'c' division... this whole week got game... friday got course.. and sunday is internal referee's soccer tournament... well at today's game one of the coaches came up to me and started talking to me and then he asked me if i knew who it was.. i took a good look at him and i kinda rocognised who it was but it still said i didnt know him... he told me he was lutfi and i was like oh lutfi the FIFA AR... haha.. and he was like so you know who i am... haha... well not abd ahz.. i do a game and i get a free accessor... hahha... well not sure if i did ok or not.. but then i think should be fine.. i did a blunder on monday.. i hop it doesnt foil up.. hope it remains covered... all depends on the next ref... well after todays game went down for ref training.. was too tiring but then on the whole.. i am kinda tired... after training went for dinner and then met zo and mikel... haha biker mike... well thats mikel's new name... biker mike... rajan gave him the name... from the cartoon biker mice from mars... haha... well mike wanted to ride around so zo and mike sent me home... i was riding with zo... dun wanna sit with mike as yet.. give him sometime first ahz... haha... well this is like somes up my day.. need to meet mentor tomorrow regarding my attendance.... oh no... haha... well ok lahz.. got to go.... ciaoz!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 11:52:00 PM:.
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