::it really amazes me how you use your words and sentences to get your point across or should i say try to create a facade.. its really amazing.. but apparently like it is said, "a picture says a thousand words", i choose to believe what i see and what my intuition tells me.. it is hardly ever wrong with it comes to this sort of matters.. sadly most of the time it was right.. it other words most of the time i was in the losing end.. so the onlyn thing i recieved was pain and grieve.. sadly it was caused by those i once considered some what dear to me.. but like it says every experience makes us stronger, i am prepared for you dude.. if its pain what you want to cause me i will be ready to face it.. i will not let you break me down.. and anyways i am having no intention of losing.. i will put up a struggle till the end..
well i did a bit of reflecting on myself.. why have i not been suceeding in make a move forward, i asked myself.. well the answer is simple.. the fault lies within me.. its all cos of a childhood problem which is "inferior complex".. i always thought lowly of my ownself.. always thinking i wasn't good enough and would fall short and would fail in most of the things i do.. always preventing myself from taking the big step forward thinking that i might fail.. well its about time i start changing it.. im gonna try to be bolder.. and guess what.. im gonna bite back to anyone who thinks i am a push over.. i will not give in without trying and without putting up a fight..
-things may not be the same as it was but i know you are and will always be here.. things will go back to the same or even better with time and with the blessings of the almighty, this i have faith in.. you always will have a special place in my heart no matter what... you are my lucky star... the one who brightens up my day with the twinkle in your eyes each time i see you smile.. your cheerful voice i will never forget... giving me the drive to go forward... know it or not but you are one of the forces that i feel behind me keeping me going on to achieve more and more... its all so easy for me to put it out here but i don't know why i can't say all this to you... one day i will tell you how i feel and how you changed my life.. my good friend.. my lucky star.. my angel..!
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 2:28:00 AM:.
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::im feeling so much inside but i just dont know how to put it out.. i cant express my happiness neither can i about my grive.. i just do not know how express what i feel.. things have been different.. i dunno why but things have been different the last month or so.. its just changed.. its no longer the same.. each night and day i just pray that things will turn out better.. its been difficult to simle and be happy.. putting up this facade has becoming taxing itself.. i dunno how long i am gonna be able to keep it going...
i wanna tell you but i just cant cos i am unsure of the outcome.. i guess its the fear of the outcomes that is keeping me from going forward.. plus with all this questions and clouds in my head its not making it any easier.. so many doubts so many uncertainties..
i need some light.. ahow me the light.. please..
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.:Sukhbir blogged on 4:49:00 PM:.
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